I remember I was in high school when I saw Tortilla Soup. I loved that this movie was centered on the Latino culture and the expectation placed on women. I remember wanting to be like Carmen, the successful business Latina! My first real job started in Los Angeles. I got the full experience of working in the city and was learning so much. I love it! This is what I envisioned the American Dream to be. I had made it! I wanted to continue to grow and become that successful Latina I envisioned. But as my thirties slowly started creeping near, I realized that being a mommy was important for my soul and happiness. It is the missing piece that would make me complete. I told my husband that once I turned 30 years, we would start trying for a baby. Secretly, I’ve been wanted a baby for a long time but it was never the right time. My husband and I were barely starting off our careers and finishing school. But I was determined that one I hit 30, whether it was the right time or not, we would start growing our little family.
I remember years prior, at every church I went to, I would pray for a baby. Thankfully enough, I found out I was pregnant three weeks after my birthday. I was such a blessing! I was beyond grateful for this new life growing. We did so much readjusting in our lives but looking back, we couldn’t imagine our lives without our daughter!
Three years later, we are so excited to be expecting our second daughter. After our miscarriage, she was a complete surprise and our biggest blessing. It made me appreciate my children even more and not take them for granted even in those most stressful moments. They really are our motivation in everything we do now. Our lives revolves around these two beautiful souls that God has entrusted in us.
Motherhood is not easy! It is hard work and I am constantly worrying if I am doing enough to raise my children to be good humans. I have my ups and downs but I continue to count my blessings every day. We are currently surviving deployment with my husband away. I has been hard on him being away from our daughters and especially since he will be missing the birth of our second daughter but I always have to remind myself that God’s plans are perfect and he is only making us stronger.
This Valentine’s Day, I am grateful for life, health, and the happiness of my family. That’s all I can ask for. I hope your day is filled with so many hugs, and gestures of love! I’m exactly where I am supposed to be and motherhood is my journey right now. I couldn’t be more happier or blessed!