Birth Story: Elise Sabrina
Birth Story: Elise Sabrina
This little girl and I will always have a special bond. Her birth is what I imagine it would be like. It was a short labor but painful delivery. I was able to hold Elise after she was born and I cried those happy tears. We had done it baby girl. Just you and I. You warm little body and baby tears washed away all the pain and sadness. You were finally here and we were finally a family of four. You will always be my rainbow and sunshine. My beautiful rainbow baby.
When I met my husband, he left for deployment a few months later. I remember standing by the dock waving by to him while a pregnant woman nearby cried inconsolably caressing her baby bump. At that moment, I hoped that would never be me. But with the military, nothing is for certain. Sure enough, years later we were awaiting the arrival of our second daughter and he was going into a 7 month deployment. Leading up to it, my mind blocked it off. I didn’t want to think of it. Thinking back, I’m glad I didn’t because it would have been harder realizing how hard those first few months without him were.
Just like my first daughter, my water broke yep days before Elise Sabrina’s due date. I had woke up late because the day before, I had been at urgent care with my three year old daughter. I had taken a shower and was getting for the day, not knowing that Elise was about to make he grand entrance. As I started cooking, my water broke. Days prior, I cried at the idea of going into labor and having to drive myself to the hospital. But sure enough, this is what ended up happening. I drove to the hospital after picking up my mom and sister. My sweet Penelope didn’t want to leave my side and I didn’t either, so she went with me to the hospital. Everything happened so quickly that I didn’t even have time to put on her cute outfit I had prepared for her. He was still feeling sick from the night before. The nurses allowed her to come into my room for a few minutes. I hugged her tightly. I knew life was going to be different and she no longer was going to be my baby. Looking back at videos from that day, I feel a sadness and nostalgia. I wish I could have prepared her more for that day. She cried because she wanted to be with me in the hospital. That’s when I realized how different, beautiful, and difficult it would be to share my full love and attention with two daughters. It took my months but I’ve learned to balance it.
My mom took care of my daughter while my two sisters were by my side, which was a relief. My husband Skyped the whole labor and delivery. Thanks to the miracle of technology, he was able to see everything. Compared to my first daughter, my second labor and delivery were shorter, about 10 hours total, but it was much more painful. Just as my first daughter, I was put on pitocin since I stopped having contractions. I had been in the hospital for about 5 hours when the contractions got more painful. The contractions were on top of each other. After a few more hours, I got an epidural. As the doctor was administering the epidural, he explained that in some cases, the epidural doesn’t work. I was in shock, how can it not work. I thought I would be fine since the epidural work great during my first pregnancy. But then sure enough, an hour or so later, the contractions started getting even more painful. I ranged my nurse and asked her why I was feeling the contractions. She administered a bit more dosage but it didn’t work. By now, I felt what a natural birth felt like. It was the most pain I had ever experienced but in hindsight, God was preparing me. This pain allowed me to become strong and understand that I can endure much more than I think I can.
My contractions were getting more painful as the minutes when by. Luckily, my nurse saw that I was already 10 centimeters dilated and was ready to start pushing. Nobody really teaches you how to push, that’s something that I wish I knew with my first born. All I remembered was that I was going to try my hardest. I kept thinking that once my baby was born, the contractions would be gone. This was my whole focus at that point, for the painful contractions to stop. I pushed for a few minutes as the nurse prepared me for delivery. It took a few extra minutes longer because the doctor was assisting another delivery. But in total I pushed for about 20 to 15 minutes. I was so thankful and I knew what to expect the second time around. I pushed for three long hours with my first daughter. That put my body under so much trauma.
After a contractions and three pushes, my Elise Sabrina was finally here. She was born on April 27, 2019 at 10:12 pm weighing 6 pounds, 12 ounces and measuring 19 inches. My little rainbow baby was finally here and I couldn’t felt more blessed. She has been everything I prayed for! She’s a mama’s girl since day one. We’ll always have a special bond.
My husband met our daughter three months later after his deployment was over. it was the best reunion ever! Our little family was finally complete.